I have this habit of opening up to people and not being capable of lying to them or concealing what I'm feeling. For instance, just a few weeks ago, I went through a breakup and you know the feelings of a post breakup and how bad they are when the breakup is still very recent. So I went to work and I was really mad and feeling down af and many of my coworkers felt that theres something wrong with me and I didnt really want to tell them what is going on or what happened. I didn't tell them exactly what happened but I just told them that I broke up with my girlfriend and some of them insisted to know more and I told them half of what happened because I didn't want to tell them what happened anws, and I just told them half of the story because I didn't know how to lie or how to push them off especially that we work together not just with each other if you know what I mean?

And theres that other thing which always happens to me and im so aware of it lol. Which is when I do something and im happy about it, I just go on sharing with everyone what I did or what happened. For instance, ever since I got into muay thai, I always like to share with my co workers what happened in my last class and what I did or what happened in general, or even when I sleep with a woman or whatever I do that makes me happy I just like sharing it with others and Im not even trying to impress them if that was my motive in the first place lol. And I fucking hate this shit.

And I also open up a lot or even when I'm going to do something crazy or whatever, I just like to tell people that I'm going to do X and X. I just like sharing with others and even try to make them smile as well if u know what I mean.

And the reason why im feeling this about myself which means why i hate this about myself is because I don't like being this guy who opens up a lot about himself or who likes to tell others like "hey im going to fuck this bitch next week" and etc... and im not saying im saying this to my co workers who arent close to me at least, no im telling these things to people who are close to me or are barely close but at least we sit and chat from time to time if u know what i mean.

What do you guys think about this? And how can I stop it? Because believe me I tried but I couldn't. And im the type of a person who is just too honest like if I feel youre a piece of shit i just go on and tell you youre a piece of shit. Its like i dont give a fuck at all and what i lastly said now is a good thing but in general sometimes openning up a lot can be a bad thing, which is being vulnerable and shit.