Last night was my breaking point. I actually paced myself yet somehow still got too drunk. I don’t think I was nearly as drunk as a couple nights ago yet I broke down and cried to my mom and told her about personal problems and things I’ve never disclosed to her.

I also drunk texted my ex again.

At this point I don’t know what to do. Quitting alcohol wouldn’t be difficult, but do I quit to the point where I can’t have one drink at a family bbq?

I’m also going to go to therapy again. After therapy could I drink again?

I’m not 100% certain I’ll quit alcohol. The problem is that negative emotions get WAY worse for me with alcohol. I don’t get so drunk that I’m endangered, but mentally I’m fucked. The fact that I literally cried to my mom for 30 minutes last night makes me feel so embarrassed and like I have no control.

If anyone can give advice on whether I should fully quit alcohol + advice on how to feel after my behavior last night, I’d really appreciate it.