We met in 7th grade, we are both 24yo now. She admitted to me a few years ago casually that she had a crush on me in middle school. Our relationship never made sense to me. She was the hot outgoing girl and I was a quiet loser. Yet despite that she would make a ton of effort for my attention. She was a good friend and I was okay with just being friends. I always knew she had deeper feelings for me but I denied that and told myself I wasn't good enough.

So 3 weeks ago I get a text from her just saying "what's up, I miss you" basically and she told me to call her sometime. About 2 weeks go by and I decide to call her and see what's up. We chatted for about 20 minutes on the phone and then she came to my place. I thought she was still in a relationship with her man of 3 years but I guess they didn't work out.

The first night I made a move when she asked if I had any Chapstick. I put it on myself and walked over to her and kissed her. We both laughed it off because it was funny, she liked it though. We cuddled a bit a while after chatting then she was giving me signs to kiss her and we made out. She spent the night.

Next day I text saying nice to see you and I tell her my availability. It was kind of a weak move because I didn't make plans I was letting her make them. So she asks "Are you asking if I wanna hang out again?" Later that night I said "I'm just letting you know my availability in case you wanted to schedule an appointment with Dr.Dickinson". She replies LMAO and I'm laughing about it cause it's funny as fuck. Then she calls me and says "ZCH8 ARE YOU TRYING TO FUCK ME?". I replied uh YEAH. I was stoned and definitely not trying to fuck her in that moment and I didn't know what was really happening so I just hung up, CRINGE but at least I didn't totally botch it.

The next day I ask if she wants to hang out she politely says no not tonight. I go to bed and wakeup to her calling me. She's crying and having a panic attack or something. She was upset because she thought I was just trying to use her for sex. We talk for a little and I just say you need to come over now so we can talk.

I was very honest with her, I told her that she is a GREAT friend and she's always been there for me. I'm not just trying to use her. I was hoping that her and her ex worked out, genuinely. I also confessed that I had some feelings for her. I called her out though and said I know you have feelings for me too. She tried hiding it at first but I held my ground and she confessed up.

The next night she comes over lookin sexy as hell to watch a movie. She clearly spent a lot of time getting herself perfect and dressed in this sexy pink outfit. We watched the movie, making out occasionally. After that movie we put something else on and we're making out, she sits up to watch the movie and I just whip it out because I'm hard and ready. She says "You're naked!" and I make her go down on me. She's absolutely soaked and we fuck.

She came over a few more times since then to cuddle/fuck.

I'm just wondering what is the best way to play this out. I want to remain friends preferably with benefits. I could maybe see a relationship working out but it hasn't even been a month since she broke up with the other guy. At this time I don't know what she wants. Do I let her hit me up when she's ready? Do I reach out in anyway?

Edit: Now that I'm looking back on our text convos she was very lovey, sending hearts and stuff. I didn't really reciprocate that or think much of it. I pulled away a little bit and now I think I'm seeing her react to that.