Reading and applying TRP are two entirely different things. When I'm with women I just use logic when speaking but I try to implement push and pull but I feel so tired trying. I hate conversations with women they bore me. Two women were super interested in me and then lost interest. I feel like I'm not a man. I'm not in touch with myself. I hate everything in my life. I was a porn addict for many years and today exactly marks 99 days since I quit and maybe I should be more patient. I can feel my feelings now a bit more. I am more present than before. I am 30% better than before but I hate where I am. I'm sorry I'm not brief and succint but I literally need to vent. I dont know how to have fu nanymore. My life is fucekd up too. I have lost belief in myself. the only thing I have is my good looks. Exams I had given up on myself. I am 25 and my family sees me as a failure. I've lied to the mtht I've been doign good at uni. I was once expelled from a university abroad. I still have 8 exams and a thesis to give. it's happened multiple times whre I've otld the mth truth and then i do a couple of exams and then i slip. Now its the first time I am so much pornfree since 10 years and opening my eyes has hurt me as i've negelected every aspect of my life. I'm sorry that I'm talking like a bitch because I just slapped a woman's ass as a joke 5 mintues ago and she told me to never do it again.