I struggle to address my needs when I’m stressed, I was actually neglected as a kid, parents were drug addicts who are now dead and it’s caused me some big problems in life

Anyway, years of self improvement I’m doing great financially but I’m killing myself, drinking everyday, not training, not eating etc

Whenever I feel high stress I isolate myself, at this point even coffee makes me neglect myself it turns me into some kind of fucking buffoon with all the typical addictions

The question is

Do I try and fix whatever this stress response is, which isn’t working btw my life’s a mess, I’m overwhelmed I don’t plate girls anymore

Or do I just go full t total and accept I’m a broker man but have my mind with limitations that I can’t have stimulants

I’ve convinced myself I can’t quit these things and also can’t keep doing them and be healthy

I need help