Long story short: 3rd date, I was able to get her to my home to cook (did 1st and 2nd date kinda ok according to what I’ve learned here), but essentially:

  • fucked up first with throwing juice by accident on top of her (her face, shirt, pants) while trying to make a joke about how to shake the bottle. Handled the situation with frame (not apologizing, laughing, telling her I was going to clean her with my tongue, getting her stuff she needed to clean herself to show I can handle any situation, etc) but she had to take a bath at my home (it was very embarrassing tho), i washed her clothes and she used a shirt I gave her in the meantime.
  • my cooking skills are trash and I didn't make any effort to do anything special, this was intentional to show she is not special / DGAF attitude (but now I'm feeling regret, maybe I should have done something better)
  • I escalated hard after the lunch I cooked and she was receptive (not blocking, just putting herself in positions to make it easy for me) but also not initiating shit, not undressing me, etc
  • asked me to give her a massage in her body when we were in my bed to watch netflix (and I did it like an idiot instead of fucking her right away like an alpha), wasted too much time on this stuff and kissing her body etc
  • spent too much time in stupid foreplay after that, I was so turned on by her body
  • fucked up when fingering her, I’m a fucking idiot for not knowing how to, I think she sensed that I didn’t know what I was doing with her clit. Yes I read sex god method but didn’t have a graphical class or anything to teach myself the proper way and it was the first time touching her vagina.
  • midway she gave me a handjob going fast (like to get me off quickly), I came kinda fast and she made me bust on her tits/chest (not the best but at least she didn’t block me like with disgust), after that we took another bath together to clean her up and she dressed, like wtf, and started to tell me she had to go due to some pending stuff at work blah blah (which might or might not be true, idk). I didn’t force her to anything but kept trying to escalate with kisses after she was dressed and stuff, however I guess this is the end. She was still receptive (like didn't try to evade the kisses) but didn’t find ways to get her naked again or do piv or get a BJ or anything.
  • she obviously saw I have an avg cock with the handjob, which maybe turned her off

One thing I noticed is that she kept comparing me to her dad (foot size, height, some attitudes)

To me it seems I ended up like a beta idiot that has no sexual experience in her eyes (kinda true but who cares), and she did that to keep me as an stupid orbiter, just wanted to see what do you guys think. My plan was to wait 1 week or so to invite her for drinks or dinner and try to end up with her on a hotel (I live with my parents), if she is not receptive/ghosts me just hard next as desire can’t be negotiated and I fucked myself up big time

No texts after, I only sent the typical "let me know once you reach home" and she did but that was it, nothing else.

Is it over? What would you do next in my position?

Sorry if this sounds autistic, I’m still learning, at least I’m advancing, before this I was frozen when talking to a cute girl. This is the first plate that I get this far from the 5 I've been trying to spin since I started talking to chicks 1 month ago.