I've done some tests online, although they're not as reliable, I personally am selfish and self-centered a lot.

Everybody seems to say that being a narcissistic jerk is the best tool. My whole life everyone, even my family tried to change this personality. But it doesn't work on a bigger level. I should be empathetic, care for others, even though they don't care about me.

I never do something out of care or empathy for someone, I always expect something in return. Tbh, everyone nowadays seems hyper-selfish.

How didn't my narcissistic personality work wonders with women in the past? I maybe think it's because I was afraid that being selfish is "bad" and that if I unleash it, I wouln't be able to communicate with others. But that goes against the masculinity right? Not being who you are, even if you aren't a saint is just projecting something you're not to others.

I can keep friends and all that, it's just that as long as they're good to me and I have worth from them, we'll stay good. As for the females, I wont even talk to them unless they're average or really useful in some areas.

I did ramble too much here, but I can't explain it in detail as much as I want to.