This post is not a troll post or a humblebrag, I'm truly at a crossroads. In know, AWALT.

I've followed TRP principals for 12 years now and have seen amazing success.

Quick background:

Had a troublesome youth up until college (drugs, robbery, breaking into homes, stealing cars) then got my shit straightened out in college, I was always a good student, but parents didn't care what I did outside of getting good grades, so I cut loose.

Got into college somehow, studied Engineering. Worked out a ton every day, went to church, studied hard and applied myself, made connections. 5 years of grinding hard in college paid off, I got a job at a defense contractor startup, worked there for 7 years, and the product we launched was tremendously successful and I'm now a millionaire at 30 years old.

Bought a house with 50 acres in the countryside and was able to pay it off this year. 3 cars, paid off, bought all the dumb toys and gadgets I want, really the next step in my life is to find a nice woman and start a family, as that was always the dream.

I've had 6 girlfriends, 6 hookups/casual sex. Most of my long-term relationships were virgins, debt free, no tattoos. Great girls overall but never had the makings of a wife. The rest of the girls I met at parties in college and hooked up with, casually dated, fucked, and moved on, or kept as a FWB. I could have easily had a 30+ body count, but I kept my schooling/career as my priority rather than trying to keep banging random chicks. I'm 6’3, handsome, jacked, charming, and above average package, so not exactly hurting for pussy ever.

I destroyed every woman I've been with sexually, many of them still reach out now and again to try and get me back, or just to tell me I'm the best they will ever get (most ex’s tell me that they have done stuff with me they will never do with their current man)

Again not trying to humblebrag, just trying to set the stage for my current circumstances

Anyways I met a very nice girl a year ago, we quickly fell for each other, took it slow and didn't fuck till 4th or 5th date. She moved in with me after 3 months of dating, and now we are seriously considering marriage.

She is as good as a modern woman gets. Tall, skinny, great body from college sports/ gym, stunningly beautiful. Great career, no debt, no tattoos, no drama, great in bed, cooks and cleans for me, supports me in all ways in life. Great with money, conservative, loves and respects me, listens to me and does whatever I ask her. Isn't an emotional wreck, very levelheaded, not a gold digger, very frugal, loyal, has a great relationship with her parents, no guy friends, no ex’s she keeps in contact with. She is totally committed to me and does all sorts of cute little things for me like writing me love notes that she leaves on my office desk. She even helps me at work from time to time and does an awesome job. If I leave for a work trip she will cry and text me how much she misses me.

She is truly my best friend and the greatest joy in my life, we have such a great time together and everyone always comments that we are a perfect couple. I love her so much and would love to spend my life with her. However there is a catch:

She was on a sports team in college and was very popular. Her body count is 12 (allegedly) 6 or so boyfriends, (all toxic of course), 6 dudes she hooked up with, dated casually, FWB, or a one-night stand.

I heard from the grapevine that she has a “hoe phase "in early college and then settled down, and tried dating the rest of her college years with limited success. She always tells me she regrets her past, and a lot of her choices were made while drunk and horny. She cries that she spent most her college single, and all her friends were in relationships, so she was trying to get a man to commit, and though sleeping with them would do that. She spent 2 years abstaining from sex before we met, as she was over men and gave up on dating.

I cannot look past her past. Of course, you'll never truly know a womans past, as they filter it to you so hard, so I'm assuming her body count is double that with even more one-night stands and hookups.

Ill be taking her out to dinner or paying for a nice vacation for the both of us and be like “damn I'm spending all this money on her and some dude got her pussy for free "or “I waited 5 dates to fuck and she fucked dudes on the first date”, or “she got drunk and fucked a dude in a bathroom, while she's cuddled up next to me in bed” or “damn im dude #13 (hopefully) to be inside her” as we are fucking.

Its seriously fucking with me. I have so much to offer a woman. All the “good girl virgins” I've met and dated ended up crazy. All the hook ups I've had were not quality women. I finally find a truly honest, loving, and supportive woman who would make a great wife and mother, and I must wrestle with her past.

Do I just accept that every woman, especially at my age (30), is just a batshit insane drama filled trainwreck of a human, and be happy I have a good one and look past her past?

Do I drop her and look for a girl EXACLY like her but who is a virgin?

Do I just accept that she is a human a well, and that humans like sex and make mistakes, especially when young and booze is involved, and that she only cares for me and me only?

Is my brain poisoned from the manosphere so much so that I cannot just relax and enjoy my time with an otherwise perfect partner for whatever time I have left on this earth?

Is this why all boomers hate their wife? (They worked their ass off to provide, and they snagged a woman who just slept around, then settled down, and committed to a man?)

Can any married guys chime in with how they delt with this?