She started almost a year ago as a plate, slowly ended up as a LTR. For a while I was still banging other girls on the side (was allowed to, but she was exclusive the whole time).

She used to worship me, cry often because she was scared I’d leave, would gift me flowers or come over at 2am. Sometimes she’d bitch at me if I woke her up early or something but I didn’t take it seriously because the power imbalance was clearly in my favor still.

But this easter weekend I was at home 4 days, got lazy and spent whole time with her just doing nothing. After 2-3 days she got kinda bitchy, we barely had sex, etc. On 4th day she “broke up with me” over some bs reason (happens occasionally, usually because she went through my phone/got jealous but this time it was just bc I didn’t clean or something). Unfortunately when she called 2 hours later all happy and said she loves me, I met up with her again (shittest failed, but at least she paid for food as apology). I got cold after that and she sent me a very long email next day with things I did wrong like flirting w other women, not replying in time etc.

But after this I realized that she’s been getting more bitchy the past 2 months, and even worse, she isn’t worshipping me anymore. She’ll just say reassuring stuff like “you’re the perfect man, don’t worry it’s not your fault I get bitchy”. Also she said she wants me to fuck other girls on the side again because it’d help the relationship.

What now? I told her I don’t want this relationship to keep going like this and I’m not settling for a semi-good relationship. I value my self respect and would leave her in a heartbeat if necessary but it would hurt losing her and I’d rather go back to when she worshipped me

Edit: Attempt to answer own Q: Get other chicks on my roster again, live without her for a few days and then see where she stands. Don’t make this a big deal, stop talking to her about breaking up just keep things chill